Reflections of a Marathoner

It’s been one month since RnR NOLA. One month! I can’t believe how fast time flies.  Since then I’ve had some time to really think about what went wrong, what went right, and why I’m no longer upset at myself for faceplanting during my first marathon.

My third recap may have come across as slightly ungrateful and I don’t want to give that impression. I am eternally grateful that I had the experience I did and that I was actually able to train for a marathon. The vast majority of people can’t say that. I had the ability, the time, the support and of course, the heart.

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It’s taken me this long to write this post because I was mad at myself for so long. I felt as though I talked a great game (“Look at me! I’m running a marathon!”) and then I wound up falling and missing my time goal. I was very much embarrassed but knew deep down that it was going to be an experience I’ll never forget. Yes, you never forget your first marathon, but this one will leave an indelible impression. Therefore, I’m no longer mad. And, who really plans to fall during any race anyway? Accidents happen, get over it.

While I really had a 4:30 goal in mind, I kept trying to tell myself to just run to finish. I wish I had truly believed I was running just for the experience. That is one thing I did wrong – I didn’t listen to anyone who knew so much more than I did! Some races are meant to be that – RACES. I shouldn’t have considered this a race and should’ve instead looked at it purely as an experience.

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So, what did I do right? I made a very big commitment and promise to myself that I would run a marathon. I trained for it, I paid attention to my body when it was hurting and did everything I needed to do to get me across that finish line. You can’t ask for much more than that.

How did you get yourself through your first marathon? Have you ever been mad at yourself over a race’s outcome?

4 thoughts on “Reflections of a Marathoner

  1. I think that there isn’t much you can do with a disappointing finish but learn from the experience and move on. I’m training for my first full right now, so ask me again in 3 months and maybe I’ll have a different answer. 🙂

  2. I’m glad you’re not mad anymore. You’re a freaking marathoner, hello?!!!!
    You said you were going to do it, you trained for it, and you DID IT!
    For my first marathon I did not allow myself to look at my Garmin at all except for mile 1 just to see where I was at pace wise. I said my goal was to finish and looking at times would have made me anxious so I just didn’t. While I wanted a faster time overall, that wasn’t my goal that day so I was okay with it.
    I’ve definitely been mad at myself for a race’s outcome. And I allow myself to be mad. But eventually it passes and I do try to learn from it. But I’m stubborn and that can be hard. 😉

  3. I’m so happy that you aren’t mad at yourself anymore!! You are amazing and I hope to be able to cross the finish line like you did in September!

    You are going to have plenty of other opportunities to get your time goal. Now that you have finished one marathon you have that experience under your belt to benefit you in the future. You are going to do great things!

  4. Oh Kristin – you sound like I did after my first. I trained so hard and had expectations for my first marathon. I wish I listened to those that said do not have expectations for your first! It took me 2 weeks before I ran again and 5 weeks to get out of the funk. That’s when I did a shorter race (15K) and I met my goals and I was back on track.

    How did I get through my first marathon – two words – my wife! She would not let me quit because she knew there would be no living with me.

    It is safe to say – yes I have been mad at an outcome of a race. I got over it at my next good race.

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